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BUS 138

2005-07-30T20:32:00.000-07:00

At my aunt house now. just finished eating the yummy crab!!! hohohoh!!!

Just now i was on bus 138. in case u dont know, bus 138 is a bus that goes towards Mandai Zoo. most of the time i will take this bus home. i enjoy taking bus 138, cause many tourists will take this bus to zoo. whenever im on the bus, i will hear many different kind of languages. some singaporeans might see it noisy, but i see it interesting. ha!! is like your left u hear indonesian language, your left u hear japanese, in front of u korean and the back of u russian language. isnt it interesting?? it feels like im living in a country full of different people from different countries! sometimes i even feel so desperate to talk to them. just make friends with them. is so fun lah. hahahaha!!! and the way they dressed always attracts me. cause people from different countries wear differently. their way of styling and dressing are always so different. so fun to look at them!! aaaaaaahahahha!!!! their funny languages and their appearances, both always attracts my attention towards them. sometimes, some handsome and cool guys attracts me too!! huahuahua!!! just simply looking at them makes me happy!! aaaaahahaha!!! too cute and handsome to be true!!! gagagagagaga!!! opppssss saliva!!!!! dripping!!!!! mmmmuuuagagagagag!!!

however, sometimes the caucasians that are tall and bigger size always irritates me. because at times they will block the way. is like people got to "squeeze" thru them. ok lah, erm i shouldnt blame them lah. kekeke.... anyway, im sure they are nice people. so stay qool people. hahaha!!!!

when u guys really really have nothing to do, try taking bus 138!! aahahahaha!!!! im sure u would have a fun and exciting journey!!! huahuahuahua!!!!

Anyway, before i end this post, i just want to say i had weird dreams recently. and i mean WEIRD!!!! okok. thats all folks! Ciaooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

END-TIME??

2005-07-28T18:30:00.000-07:00

Just ended my english tuition given by Lindsey. We were talking more than learning english. haha!! but perhaps only for today lah. Dunno how and when this "End-Time" topic came to us. We were actually talking about it for like 1 hour??? i find the things that Lindsey said are interesting. of cos doubts were everywhere "hidden in my mind". but i was still super curious about what Lindsey was saying. i hear many people talking about end-time, but seriously i just didnt bothered about what those people are saying. and therefore, i ended up knowing nothing about it. so today i finally know what a end-time is. a rough one of cos. im pretty interested to know more about end-time. Looking forward to the service with Rev. Mike Connell. heard from many people that he's a man full of the spirit. hmmm..........

AM GUILTY

2005-07-25T15:58:00.000-07:00

am guilty

OUT OF FOCUS

2005-07-24T16:50:00.000-07:00

Life somhow is out of focus. im not sure how to act, how to feel, and how to respond. feel that im just not fit in anywhere.

ALWAYS HEAD TOWARS THE NORTH (YI LU XIANG BEI)

2005-07-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

hou shi jing li de shi jie yue lai yue yuan de dao bie
The world from the rear view mirror becomes further and further away as if saying goodbye

ni zhuan shen xiang bei che lian hai shi hen mei
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful

wo yong yan guang qu zui jing ting jian ni de lei
I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears

zai che chuang wai mian pai hui shi wo cuo shi de ji hui
Outside the car window is my missed opportunity

ni zhan de fang wei gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei
Your position and mine is separated by tears

jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window

wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you

ni shuo ni hao lei yi wu fa zai ai shang shui
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again

feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrong doings

xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances

wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you

fang xiang pan zhou wei hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui
Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret

wo jia sui chao yue que shuai bu diao jing jing gen shui de shang bei
I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness

xi shu can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances

ting zhi lang bei jiu rang cuo chun cui
Stop the anguish by letting my wrong doings

TIRING DAY

2005-07-17T23:42:00.000-07:00

Super tired!! Yesterday do Rina's birthday card till 2am. Look pretty restless today. Didnt manage to go for Service 5 today. Cos SuiSui and LiChing were late for service. So i waited for them at the lobby. While i was waiting for them, YuanMei(my cousin's friend) came and say hi to me. i first met her at cousin's chalet, and sometimes we see each other in church, we'll just say Hi to each other. But today we had a long conversation, and we actually chat for 1 hour. We talked about many things. Our life, our encounters with God, our Cell group, share our problems and other stuff. In the beginning, we dont really know each other well, but somehow the things that we talk about were like as if we know each other for quite some time. After that, we also prayed for one another. This conversation did benefits the both of us, and actually i was pretty astonished by it when i think back. The most amazing thing was, after we end our conversation, LiChing and SuiSui came. Really dunno they came at the right or the wrong time. is quite confusing actually. Cos they miss the svc, they came at the wrong time, but they came after my coversation with Yuanmei, and therefore they came at right time. actually im thinking whether izzit Daddy want me to miss the service, and let me have a chance to talk to YuanMei. Perhaps lah hor. Anyway, in the end LiChing, Sui2 and i didnt attend service, and we went cafe to wait for svc to end.

When svc was about to end, we went riveria to wait for Rina and the rest to gather. After announcement and all, we celebrated Rina's birthday. As usual, sing birthday song, speech from Rina, open present and prayed for her. Everyone seems to be super excited and happy. But as a birthday coordinator, i feel that i didnt do a good job. i think that being a birthday coordinator isnt that easy. try to be one if you think is easy.

Anyway after the celebration, Gloria and i had Bible Study. Then a few of us went Marina Square to eat and shop. When i finished eating, i went to meet my family and this HongKong couple that came last few months. This time they brought their two daughters with them. Their younger daughter is super cute. i like the way little children speak cantonese. is sooo cute!!! i think this family is very nice to be with. they really bring joy to people.

Thats all for today. had a tiring day!! byeeeeeee........

MAGIC FEAST

2005-07-14T18:54:00.000-07:00

ANGER

2005-07-13T23:44:00.000-07:00

Had my english oral today. everything goes smoothly. hmm.. but picture was the "killer". pictures always drive me craziee!!! i hate that!! eeuuuww yuck!! but at least i feel that this time picture i didnt really screwd up lah. hahaha!!! anyway, i have no problem reading the passage and the conversation was pretty alright too. One of the conversation was about "ANGER". Hmm.. like tok about anger?? what makes a person angry?? something like that. Then after the next question was "talk about something that makes u angry". Hmm.. i talked alot lah. just let it flowww..... whatever comes to my mind, i just bullshit out. i tok pretty much about this part. just dont care about anything and say whatever i think about anger. Though this might be a common topic, but i feel that is pretty interesting lah.

U guess it. im gonna tok about anger! Ha! Anyway, i think this is gonna be interesting!! I feel that sometimes people get angry because of small matters. Some people even get angry just to get attention. I dont know how this people think. izit because they think is so "cool" to get angry in front of soo manyyyyy people?? does that mean that you are so "bravo"??? these people are just trying to get others attention. Really really dont understand how these people think.

I think different people have different "level" of anger. For example, like someone stepped on your feet. if u get angry because of that, then u are someone who get angry easily. maybe u think that many people will get angry about it too. Of cos, ur 1st reaction is WAH!!! think back guys, is this particular person purposely step on ur feet??? some people will make a big fuss about it. they will even curse the person that stepped on their feet. come on lah, i dont think theres a "BIGGGG" reason for u to get soo fed up about that rite?? ok lah, hmm i just take this as an example only lah. if you dont get what i mean, its ok.

Anyway, i personally feel that anger is something mentally. is like if you tell urself im angry. of cos u will be angry lah. but what if u tell urself, im not gonna be angry?? i think it can be done. it just depends on how u think about it. i have a friend saying that anger is something emotional. but i told her about my views because i dont agree with it. i think some people will also say that it should be something emotional. i guess the way we think about anger is different. and perhaps thats just my point of view. its up to others whether they chose to agree or disagree. thats nothing to argue about such thing, afterall is your own views.

if u ask me, am i a person who gets angry easily?? or u can even ask do u get angry before?? Of cos i do get angry sometimes. who never get angry before?? but izzit because of big matters or small matters?? im sure u hear people say "aiya, its not worth getting angry about such thing". if something "bad"(actually is not that bad) happen, i will get angry for quite some time. but when i think back of the things that have happened, sometimes i will still get fustrated about it, or just feel that why cant i just cool down and dont get angry?? to me, fustration is when u feel like pouring everything out to someone, however anger is when u mentally think that u are super angry. so u will have that "black" face.

Whatever it is, i think anger can be controlled by ur mind lah. thats the end!!! ok see ya!!!

WHERE AM I HEADING TO??

2005-07-11T23:33:00.000-07:00

AM A MYSTERY

2005-07-10T19:50:00.000-07:00

I am a mystery.

PRAYER TIME....

2005-07-06T18:00:00.000-07:00

Isnt it a cute picture?? i think is supper cute lah. Ha!

HOLY SPIRIT

2005-07-06T16:04:00.000-07:00

Come and fill me Holy Spirit
I seek the warmth of your embrace
Lord I’m longing for your presence
Just one touch of your grace
I’ll keep on waiting
Waiting on you

All my life I’ve searched for heaven
My heart it longs for so much more
A love so true now I’ve found it in you
I’ll keep on waiting
Waiting on you

Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at your feet
I offer to you
For only you can satisfy my longing
Jesus you’re all I desire

Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at your feet
More than what this world offer
You are my only treasure
My world means nothing without you

PERHAPS

2005-06-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

Still thinking of taking up the challenge that Mr Lim offers. Once again, Mr Lim talked about it today when he saw me. But im not yet prepared. my heart and my mind are not ready yet. i've asked Vivian about it. She asked me to go for the challenge. hmm.. im sure whoever i ask, they will sure ask me to go for it. hmm... perhaps.

UNTITLED

2005-06-29T16:27:00.000-07:00

SHE'S NOT THERE

2005-06-29T11:20:00.000-07:00

why izzit always when i needed her the most, and she not there?? i just feel like crying out loud. wanting to tell her that i need her. wanting to ask her why isnt she there whenever i need her??

THE GIFT

2005-06-29T00:56:00.000-07:00

Been wanting to blog about the gift(that Mr Lim has) last few weeks, but im sure people will think ya they can understand people well enough. But the truth is, is that enough for a person to noe others well, but do not know how to really communicate with them?? What i wanted to blog about last few weeks was "the gift in me". i've this gift that understand people, know what they are thinking(sometimes), know what kind of person are they and can communicate pretty well with people if i want to. Ha! Once again, believe it anot, thats for u to decide. Most of the time, when i get to know new people, im actually able to know what kind of person they are when i first met them. are they a hypocrite and so on... I do understand people well too. I know how a person feel whenever im with them. Sad? Happy?? Angry?? Even when they are "acting", i know them all.

But sometimes, i really hate to know others well. becos it makes me think a lot. i will think about the people around me. What kind of person are they? are they saying the truth? and lots of stuff. i will get fustrated. Becos my brain just cant stop thinking. is always names, faces, words and actions appearing in my mind. sometimes is pretty irritating. 1 more thing is, i know myself TOOoooooooo well already. I dont know how to say, but this is very different from you, knowing yourself. Thats why sometimes i do not know whether this is a gift or what. Cos it do benefits me. Cos i can know how to communicate with people well, know how they actually feel, and i can also beware of the wicked ones.

Different people have different gift. is not how great the gift is. however i think is how this gift benefits others and yourself. how you can help others by having this gift. perhaps u have a gift thats in you, but u just didnt realize it yet. it takes sometimes for myself and the people around me to realize this gift. im sure it is the same for you.

I remembered theres once while i was toking to a friend on the phone, she was telling me that i have this special gift in me. in my heart, i was like thinking wow shes the first person that said that. but before she say that, i already realized that im good with people.(hey, im not trying show off or wat lah ok) but i didnt think of it as a gift. This friend was telling me that she has this same gift as me. i realized that too. cos i can see that shes good wih people too. im sure she knows what kind of person i am. and i noe her well too. Kinda scary actually. ha! This friend of mine, told me that Daddy gave this gift to me, so that im able to touch people's life.

Really been thinking too much about life. Just got to take a break for a while. Ciaooooo

AM I READY??

2005-06-28T16:24:00.000-07:00

Second day of school. Pretty alright. Today while having PE lesson, Mr Lim used two whole periods to talk to us. Cos many people didnt change to their attire. But somehow it wasnt a scolding section, but just a talk. i've got a feeling that Mr Lim has a gift of understandng people well. this is actually a special gift. Cos not many people can understand others well. Of cos, u will think that anyone can understand their love ones well. True, but that is quite different from what Mr Lim has. A gift, means a thing in you which is special, unique. You can understand someone well, but do u really noe how to communicate with the person?? Sometimes these gifted people are able to read others mind. Pretty scary rite?? but is true, no joke. Believe it anot, thats ur choice.

Anyway, today Mr Lim asked me a question. and i've got to make a choice. im afraid, very afraid. This choice might make or might not make a difference in my life. but what im thinking is, what if theres a difference?? i remembered that he said "a + is a bonus". Got to gave him a answer next week. if u ask me, am i prepare for this challenge? i can tell u, no im not. becos im scared. therefore, im trying to get ready these few days. becos i told myself that i want to take up this challenge!!

WHAT A MIND

2005-06-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

Back from running!! Shocked yeah me too!!! hahaha!! Dont ask why, im just in the mood of runnnning.....Therefore i went to Yio Chu Kang Stadium to jog.

While jogging, i was thinking about many things. Wanted to let my brain rest for a while, but i've tried dude. Past few days, i cant sleep. My mind was like working nonstop!! Is either i cant sleep or i kept dreaming. What kind of dreams?? Weird dreams!!! ha!

Was having BS by Rina just now. Was supper tired!! im like falling asleep. i kept yawning and yawning until I, myself felt so pai seh. Actually the BS was not boring at all, is just that it takes a long time to cover that 1 lesson. Somehow, i cant concentrate also. Cos of the surrounding, and my mind just cant stop wondering(I told u, my mind just cant stop thinking about curtain things). Hai, dun wanna tok about it anymore. Just pray that i will be able to have a good sleep tonight.

*i've brought my Adidas bag!!!!!
*School tomorrow, a new beginning?? Hmm....

COMMUNICATIONS

2005-06-24T01:51:00.000-07:00

ok i'm in a blogging mood now. Just want to blog about something that i wanted to blog since... Dunno when. ha!

Sometimes communications cause many people to get wrong ideas and misunderstanding. Hmm.. dunno how to put into words. but i just feel that, sometimes when i talk to people, they dont get what i mean. thats still fine wih me, but the worse scenerio is when they get the wrong idea of what im toking about. Sometimes, somehow i just feel very tired of explaining myself. Thats why, sometime i just feel like keeping quiet and say nothing. Just let people talk about what they want to say.

For example, conversation during msn messenger and sms. I think these 2 communications are easier to have misinterpretation of words. Because of one word that u type in the conversation makes a lot of difference. Not only that, sometimes even the tone of saying the sentence/phrase can have different meaning. I encountered these problems before. Donno whether is because i didnt use the correct words, or is it because some people just "dont want to understand" what im toking about.

Talking on the phone or face to face are somehow better. this is because u get to hear the tone of the person talking. Different tone, carries different meaning. kind of interesting actually, but sometimes i just got so fustrated whenever people misinterpret the words.

Most of the misunderstanding in this world cause by communications. If u do not know how to communicate well, its a very scary thing. People misunderstood your words and causes chaos/quarrel/arguements. Whatever u can think of.

Im actually a person that take words quite seriously. As in, when people say something or promise me something, i will take it very seriously. For example, when u say that u will call me tonight, i will wait for your call. But when that somebody neva call, i will feel sad and feel cheated by that person. U must be thinking, just a call what. ya just a call, but it means a lot to me. perhaps thats me lah.

I enjoyed conversation with friends. i love to seat at some quiet cafe/beaches, and just talk with my friends. once again, this is one of my favourite quality time. I dont mind spending long hours seating with my friends and just chit chat. I guess thats all folks! Off to lala land.........

I WANT MY BAG!!!

2005-06-23T00:31:00.000-07:00

Today went out with Hweeli and Weiling. We went to amk mos burger to "visit" Vivian 1st. Had our lunch there, and we got discount for our meals!! Envy? Want to have discount too?? Yeahh try harder. hahahahaha!!

After that we head to Heeren. i miss town!!! Saw many stuff that i want to buy!!! but i've got no $$$$$.... Sighhh... It's a sad sad story. Saw this supper niceee Adidas bag!! It's love at first sight!!! i like it soooooooooo very mucchhh!!!!! It costs 59 bucks!!! Superr ex lah... Haizzz.. Instead of buying that bag, i went to buy this Nike shirt. I like it too!! Saw alot alot alottttttttttttttttttttt of stuff that i want to buy, but i need somthing call "money" to get them all...!!! eeeuuuuwwww!! After spending most of my money, suppose to meet ChenYun for movie. But the tickets for Initial D was sold out!!! So sadd..... Therefore my date with ChenYun was cancelled, and i continue with my shopping with Li and Ling. We went to some shops. We went to try the clothes. Wah all supper ex loh. But we dun care lah, no harm trying mah. hahaha... We were having fun trying all the clothes!!! hahaha!! Saw this 3 quarters pants at Zara. Both Li and I like it. Cost about 40 bucks. Thinking of whether to buy anot. hmmm....... We'll see lah huh.

Went back about 8 plus, saw Rina's message. She said that Pastor Audrey wants to meet the O lv students tomorrow. Hmm.. interesting.... Hahaha... Dunno what shes gonna say. ok lah, will talk about it tom if i feeel like blogging ok?? See ya!!!!

EVERYTHING WAS GOOD!

2005-06-20T12:21:00.000-07:00

Father's day was yesterday. Went dinner with my family. After that, Marvin(my cousin), both my brothers and i went ktv. Woohoo!!! Finally huh. ktv!! suppper longgg neva go sing ktv alrdy. But the best thing was, it was a fellowship with one another. We were really having fun!! My elder brother teach Marvin how to sing with his super "low" voice(hahahaha), and he sing until supper funny loh. hahaha!!! Really enjoy those moments.

Last week was super good for me. I just dont know how to explain it. But i feel good that whole entire week. ho! My F&N practical exam was good. my Cell Group was good. Bible Study was Good. My days were pretty awesome that week. Simple and ordinary days. But i felt suuper fresh and qool everyday!!! yeahhhhhh.... Ciaooooooo

DADDY DID U SEND THEM TO ME??

2005-06-15T20:30:00.000-07:00

Just sent Hweeli to the bus stop. After sending her to the bus stop, i went back home. While i was waiting for the lift just now, i met this couple. The husband is a Singaporean and i think the wife is a Indonesian. We went into the lift together. Ha! So we chatted for quite a while. I've never seen this couple before, However, the wife gave me some advice about "something". I kept thinking about the advice she gave. Was puzzled and erm... dunno how to say. The advice is not those rubbsh stuffie, you must be thinking some not very nice stuff, but it is not. It might be able to help me.
The wife also told me that they are Christians, and ask me whether am i a Christian too?? (ok, u must be thinking it is like supper long conversation right??) Quite actually. Ha! Hmmm, she also tell me which is her apartment. This couple live in 5th floor, and me 7th. I was shocked that she tell me her apartment no. too. is like we met each other one time only, but we tok sooo much. haha!!
Lastly, before we say byee to each other, she said "God bless You!". Of cos, i thanked her.

Daddy, did u send them to me?? im still wondering. Hmmmm............

INDONESIAN WORSHIP SONG

2005-06-12T01:46:00.000-07:00

Ok my cousin has found the indonesian worship song. here it is. dada!!!

Bila kubuka mata ku (When I open my eyes)
an lihat wajah Mu (And look at Your face)
Kuterkagum (I am amazed)

Bila kulihat hidupku (When I look at my life)
dan karya tangan Mu (And all the works of Your hand)
Kutersanjung (I am honored)

Kar'na semua yang baik (Because all good things)
dalam hidupku (In my life)
Itulah karya Mu (They are Your wondrous works)
Kaub'ri k'sempatan yang baru (You give a brand new chance)

Dan ku ingin mengenal Mu, Tuhan (And I want to know You, God)
Lebih dalam dari s'mua yang kukenal
(Deeper than all that I have known before)
Tiada kasih yang melebihi Mu (There is no greater love than Yours)
Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembah Mu (I am here to be Your worshipper)

KUTERKAGUM

2005-06-10T01:30:00.000-07:00

Back from supper with Marvin. After the Emerge conference, we went supper oppsite our house. The exciting part was, while we were walking back and from home, we kept singing the christian song that we sang in church tonight. While we were singing, we had lots of action. i think a few people pass by tot we crazie or wat. haha!!! but we just dont care lah. ha! Anyway is midnight, not many people also lah. We sang the indonesian song too.
It goes....

Bila kulihat..........wahjah-mu, kuterkagum(im amazed)
Bila kulihat hidupku......., kutersanjung(im honored)
Karna semua yang baik....hidupku.
.......................
Ka'biri kesemptan yang baru.
(CHORUS)
Dan kuingin mengenal-mu tuhun
lebih dalam dari smua yang kukenal.
Tiada kasih yang melebihi-mu
ku ada untuk menjadi penyembah-mu.

Erm thats some part i still dont remember. ha! u must hear it man! is a super nice song!! Anyway, the conference was good.

EMERGE CONFERENCES

2005-06-09T12:17:00.000-07:00

Was very tired these few days. Went for the Emerge conferences. Is like the whole day stay in church. But this is my 1st year attending Emerge, so was pretty excited. keke.

The 1st day of the conference was on Tuesday. The talentime was good. Morning and afternoon sessions were pretty alright. but when it comes to the night session i didnt manage to go in. Dont ask me why. I just dont want to tok abt it anymore, since its over. However was very sad. I really want to hear the message. After i heard many people said that the message is about Spiritual Hunger, i was then supeeeeeeeeeeerrrrr sad and was disappointed. Perhaps, just like wat Gab has said, there is always a reason why we didnt get in the audi. Of cos, the reason is not because we queued later than others. I'm sure Daddy has His reason.

The 2nd day which was yesterday night. Hm.. glad that i'm able to get in for all the sessions. The night session, when i reach the audi, i got a bad feeling. i didnt know why, but just dont feel good. Dont know how to describe the feeling, but my mood just change sooo super fast.

Yesterday a guy name Sidney came from Indonesia. He lead the Praise and Worship. He's super cute. At first i tot he's in his 20s, but actually he's 32 years old!! What a big diff rite?? But he really looks very young!! During the worship session, he taught us a Indonesian worship song. Wah super nice!! i like it sooo much!!! He's good!!

Tonight will be the last session of the conference. Daddy, i pray that it would be a session that will really impact my life.

I WAS "ASKED" TO GO HOME

2005-06-06T18:26:00.000-07:00

So irritating!!!! I got chased bck home today!!! yuck! Suppose to attend this Science Study Camp. Therefore i went to skull today. But the tchers found out that i didnt pay $5 for the study camp, so i cant attend. Dumb rite?? Actually i gave the consent form alredy, but i 4get to give the money. So the tchers told me that they cant take me in, cause they group everyone in order alredy. But still can take me in rite? so stupid loh!!! And the $5 is for the food that the skull supplied, but i can dun eat wat. anyway, saw the food today, wasnt that nice. not worth it lah. hahaha!!!

But i cant attend the study camp also good lah. Cos i can attend Emerge Conference. Ha!! Perhaps i think Daddy dont want me to miss out the conference. Kee!! But still got to wake up early. Sigh....

PASSION

2005-06-05T22:06:00.000-07:00

Matt 22:37
v37: Jesus replied, "you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind."

When you "fall in love", you must love..........
With all your heart - Emotional: feel good, warm, kind, want to hold them, kiss them.
With all your mind - Cant stop thinking about them, distracted, scheming of ways to bless them.
With all your strength - Using your energy, money and time to make them feel good, to cause them to enjoy life.

This is passion for a person.

FELT EASE

2005-06-05T01:46:00.000-07:00

Just ended a conversation with a friend. This friend of mine said something that touches my heart. Actually wanted to type in my blog, but if i just type it here, i think u guys will think it is weird for a friend to say that. So since u guys dont know the "whole picture" is like, so i dare not type it out. Ha!! Anyway, just wanna say, this friend kind of know me very well, even tho we know each other like not super long lah. This friend has impacted my life. Ok, perhaps a short post lah, wanna sleep alredy. Gnite!!!

HE'S A SICKO!!

2005-06-04T22:40:00.000-07:00

He makes me sick!!!
The way he eats makes me sick!
The way he talks makes me sick!
The way he sleep makes me sick!
The way he sits makes me sick!!
The way he boasts about himself makes me sick!!
His dirtiness makes me sick!!
The way he treats others makes me sick!!
Errrkkkk..... Everything about him just makes me SICK!!!!

SUPER LONG POST!!!

2005-06-01T15:25:00.000-07:00

1st. Finally Chinese O level is over. The third time and the last time!! No more chinese for me!! im getting to hate this subject. I guess i will get back the same grade. The papers are pretty alright. but i feel that my standard didnt go up. still maintain the B4 standard. Anyway, its over lets not tok abt it anymore. im just looking forward to clear my oral and listening.

2nd. Finally i bought a MP3!!! Bravo!!! Is Zen Micro!! The sad thing was, left only white, black and silver. no more lime green!!! no more orange!!! errrkkk!!! so in the end, i bought black. cos white will get dirty easily and i dun really like the silver one. still, im satified with black one. Hooo!!!

Just came back from my cousin's chalet. Stayed for 2 nights. the 1st day, we had BBQ and he invited his cell group members. And i got to know more city harvester now!! ha!! I invited chenyun, may and carmen to go on the 1st day. Has been sometime since we last hang out together. Cos now we are in diff schools and bz with our own life, so didnt really have the time to catch up with one another. Ya, so only Marvin(my cousin), Sean, Qianjun(did i spell correctly? ha!!) and I stayed for the 2 nights. Everytime when we were in the room, we will be eating and drinking. Ha! Yesterday morning i met Denise for breakfast at whitesand McDonald, cos she stay at Pasir Ris. Den i decided to go home and change den go back to chalet. The 4 of us den slack in the room. And after resting, we went to the Prayer Meeting together.

Ho!! Rina is back!!! Back from her Honeymoon!! Saw her in Church yesterday. She went to the Prayer Meeting too! Two weeks never see her, den when i saw her yesterday night, she looks like a stranger to me for 5 secs!! hahha!!! wat am i saying?? erm aiya i just dunno how to describe it lah. hahaha!!!

Aniwai after prayer meeting, we went back to downtown east. Before we head to the chalet, we went CHEERS to buy food and drinks again!!! hahah!!! Eat and Drink NONSTOP!! So today was the day to check out. We decided to go Sean's hse after that. So we went to take a cab to his hse. His room got a huge drum set!! qool isnt it?? so "in love with instruments" me, went to play with the drum set!! So fun!!!! huahuuahua!!! When i got tired of it, i went to played tennis with Marvin. Still remember got once i went nat's hse and play tennis, and the ball flew out of the court!!! mushahahahahahaha!!!! How "bravo" can i be man??? gagagaggaga!!!
Anyway. after the tennis game with Marvin, i went home.

Wow wow!! this post is super long!!! ahhahaahaha!!! actually i used 2 days to type this post. cos the first 2 paragraph was written yesterday. Wen i was typing, i gotta rush out, so i just continue with it today! haha!!!! Enjoy dudes!!

I PLAYED BASKETBALL

2005-05-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

Back from cell group. Today's cg was at bishan!! how qool it is?? haha!! not Bedok not Clementi, but BISHAN!! Woohooo!!! Anyway, is for today only. ha! After cg, while waiting for the whole cg to go dinner together, Lindsey and I went to play basketball. A ball drop from the sky? Ha! U doubt so huh?! Okok. We borrowed a ball from some guys. So we played for 10 - 15 mins. Has been quite some time since I last played basketball. I loved to play "night" basketball. The feeling is awesome!! is like so peaceful and the weather is pretty nice. No one is screaming, shouting, talking and grumbling. is just so peaceful. All i can hear are the sound of the board and bouncing of the ball. Love playing basketball!! sometimes I feel that playing basketball can help me "destress". Dunno why, sometimes i can sense freedom. Weird huh?? Ya I noe. but I dunno why lah. Just feel very relax after a game of basketball. YUP!!

I felt bad today. Because just now after cell group, Daniel asked me a question. And I said something that I regretted saying. I felt so bad when I think back. Cant imagine i said that. Hmm... Here i am, want to say Sorry Dan.(tho i think u wont see this) Still, I'm very sorry!!!

Recently, i've been toking rubbish. Dunno why and dunno how. Just saying things that hurt others. I didnt mean it guys. I'm very sorry!! Have been thinking a lot lately. Perhaps is time for a "brain dead" session.

AM I TOWARDS OR AM I AWAY???

2005-05-24T17:41:00.000-07:00

LIVING IN CONFUSION

2005-05-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

This pressure is making me sick. What am I going to do?? What can I do?? I'm living in this confusion.

FEEL SHIT TODAY!

2005-05-16T12:40:00.000-07:00

Bruised and shattered

JOE PRINGLE IS SO CUTE!!

2005-05-15T23:23:00.000-07:00

Rev. Dr Phil Pringle is GOOD!!! okie, i guess i gotta kind of intro him abit. erm, he's a pastor from Sydney Australia. He's church is called the Christian City Church(CCC). He's a person who really flow with the spirit when he preach. He super cute also. The way he preach is interesting!!

This week, i go church everyday!!! except for Monday. can u imagine?? i go for so many services and conferences!! but was Good!!! Awesome!!! 1st time chiong for so many services and conferences. pretty cool... hahha!! However, he's preaching is too chim for me, but still i try my very best to understand. keke... He brought his family too! His younger son, Joseph Pringle is sooooooooooooo cute!!! Super cute!!! hahaha!!! Nikki fletcher(vocalist) and Joseph lead the praise and worship. And it was Great!!!! Awesome!!! i love the both of them!! Their new release album was very nice!! are you thinking that it might be hymns or some traditional christian songs?? Nah Nah Nah.. is for youth! is kind of a punk and soft rock kind of music. Is a great album!! i love it!! Guess wat?? Today i got their autograph on the new album!!!! and i took a photo with them!!! So qoolllll.....!!!!! Jo is so funny!!! Nikki is so pretty!!!

Hmm... cant wait for them to come to my church in August this year!!!

RINA'S BIG DAY!!

2005-05-14T00:50:00.000-07:00

Today is Rina's BIG DAY!!! She got married today!!! im sooooooo happy for her!!! She's beautiful..!!! She looks great!!! So prettie!!! She invited the Cell Group members to attend her wedding matrimony. This is the 1st time i attend this kind of event and was super excited!!! aaaaaaahahaha!!! im curious, cos is like dunno how everything is like. keke! Anyway, i had a great time today!! The matrimony was good, and everyone is so excited!!! yeahhhh!!

Cell Group have a love offering for Rina. means like giving her a ang bao. At the same time, Weiling and i also bought her a BIG card! Super nice and cute!! I asked yuenling, hweeli and nat to write something on it too. Nat helps to deco the card, so it wont look so plain u see. Ya, so Nat deco it, and was soooo niceee!!! Actually, my mom also wrote on the card, Rina was shocked when she saw that. ha! Anyway, hope Rina will like the card.

After the matrimony, Theresae came for svc!! im so glad that she came, so happy!! keke!! really hope that she enjoys it!! After svc, Yushan, Daniel, Theresa and I went to the coffeshop for fellowship. While we were eating, Dan called Rina. After he talks to Rina, i ask Dan to pass the fone to me. So i had a conversation with Rina. She was back at her new home which is located at Amk!! Really hope that cell group meeting will be held there, instead of Bedok. keke!! Anyway, she was saying that shes trying to get use to her new home. ha! She's so funny...!! After that, i passed the fone to Theresa, without telling Rina. i just asked her to hold on a min and so Rina gets to talk to Theresa on the fone, even tho they neva see each other before! Ha! Amazing huh?? haha!!

Im happy today!! Rina got married and Theresa came for service!! Awesome day!!!

SUPER WEIRD!!

2005-05-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

I've a SUPERRRR weird dream this morning!!! and i was almost late for skool. A pretty weird day!!

2-35-35-35 PIZZA HUT DELIVERY

2005-05-05T22:49:00.000-07:00

Didnt blog these few days. nth interesting. actually im lazy to blog also. huahuahua!!! Yesterday wen pizza hut with tine, shi, hweeli and nat. Actually i date tine only. we planned to go out and eat after our geography paper. However, when the both of us were walking to the mrt station, there came the 3 of them, so they joined us for lunch too. so went to the pizza hut at united square.

oh, i love pizza hut's baked rice!!! i love it and i love it!!! Booooooya!!!! hahahaha!!! however, i didnt manage to eat the baked rice, cos shi and hweeli want to eat a set meal which is for 4 person. So i at that too. Aniwai, i also cant remember which baked rice i ate the other time. but i know is superr nice!!! hohohoho!!! Ate alot yesterday, was superrr full...!!! thats my meal for yesterday, cant even eat my dinner. SUPER DUPER FULL!!! huahuahua!!!

I LOVE HONGKONG!!

2005-05-01T23:24:00.000-07:00

Boohooooo!!!! im tired!! im superrr tired!!! today, i went to tour around singapore. so funny rite?? a singaporean tour around singapore. Cos my dad's hongkong friends came to this so called "green" country(just trees and grass) At first, we planned to bring them to Malaysia, but at night they flying back to Hong Kong, so will be too rush for them.

Ya, so my dad drive us around. all we do was eat, eat and eat!!! i ate a lot today!!! we went to eat dim sum in the morning, eat durian, basically all the Singapore food lah. This couple from Hongkong super cute one. they are super funny, and is a loving couple. Wherever they go, there is this "big smile" on their face. Always so cheerful, so happy. The most funny part is the husband kept saying cars. So in chinese is "che zi", but he pronounced as "chair" zhi. is superrrr funny!! i had a hard time trying to figure out what he's trying to say, ha!! We went to this fish farm to see fishieee. After that, we head to Pasir Ris Park. We also went to Lil India and Chinatown. Was so tired running here and there. But i had fun lah. keke.

Still remembered last year i went Hong Kong with my family, this couple brought us around too. They are very nice people. I love to be with them. Cos is like whenever you are with them, there's always this joy which brighten up ur days. Really enjoyed the trip last year. Just now the wife was asking me to go find them during this may or june. actually my parents planned to go in june holiday. but i might be going with a friend, den the wife asked me to stay over at thier place if i really want to go, and she will bring me around again. so qool...!!! like that, i can even save the $$ for hotel room. hohohoho!!

Anyway, i gotta asked my mom again. make sure she allow me to go. but actually just now the wife kind of convinced her to let me go there by myself. keke. Really hope i can go Hongkong again!! i love Hongkong!! the food, the people and everything!!! i love them ALL!! muahahahaha!!!

Lastly, Gnite!! i wanna sleep alrdy!! Super tired!!!

PLEASE HELP!!

2005-04-29T23:43:00.000-07:00

I'm so full..........!!!! wen billy bombers with benson, june and weiling. The main purpose of today's outing is to study. However, we ended up shopping and eating. i intro them to billy bombers. The food there are not bad, quite nice. Today i ate this spagetti called the miranara(smth like that). Wasnt that nice actually, but the prawns is nice!! Denise is the 1st person that brought me to billy bombers, and she intro me this chocolate milkshake which is SUPER nice!!! I LOVE IT!!! and just now june, benson and weiling ordered the shakes too. i think they pretty like it. Had a great dinner with them. a great day too!!!

Recently, i realised that i have been spending too much on food!!! aaaaaahahahaha!!! im broke!!! but i love to enjoy good food!! there's always this satisfaction, ohh so woohhoooo!!! huahuahua!!! many people around me have been wanting to lose weight, therefore dont want to eat this and that. is like duhhh!!! food is to be eaten! i mean is like, u dont eat now, nx time wen u are old, u cant eat this cant eat that/ cant drink this cant drink that. but but but, eat with a limitation. not becos the food is nice and u eat a lot until ur stomach burst or wateva it may be. aaaaaaaahahahahaha!!!

Lastly, please donate money to LENG cos she has no money for food. tissue selling for $1, come and buy. Please help her, she needs money. ByeBye!!

HAD FUN YESTERDAY!

2005-04-26T23:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to eat sakae sushi buffet with Theresa and Hweeli. Guess u will be thinking, wah, sushi again!! ha!! yeah sushi again!! but i love it!! aaaaaahahaha...!!! Anyway, really had a great time with the both of them. This is what i call the quality time. Spending time with my friends, i enjoyed it! We tok a lot and at the same time eat a lot!!! mugagagaga!!!

We ordered this long bean thingie, i think is called Edamame. erm, is a kind of beans that u'll have to press the beans out(only can eat the beans, not the outer part of it). ok, ya so Theresa Tan Shu Xian(haha) didnt noe how these long beans are to be eaten. Therefore she went to bite the whole thingie. the moment i see her biting, i burst into laughter. cant help it, but to laugh!!! huahuahua!!! U must see the way she eat, wah, is sooooo funny!! aaahahhahhahaha!!!! After that, me and Hweeli explain to her how these long beans should be eaten, and she manage to press out the beans(tho she took a longgggggg time to do it). Got once while she was pressing the beans, it droppd into her green tea!!! See, how clumsy can she be?? aaaaaahahahaha!!! Better stop saying, if not later she will always "IDIOTing" me!! gagagagaaga!!!

After sushi buffet, i wen for maths tuition. im so stressed out, that i kept eating m&m. Brother Dennis was eating m&m too, cause he's also stressed while teaching us!! huahuahua!!! Anyway, after tuition, Brother Dennis offered to send a few of us home. He's so good!!! kekke!!!

JUST SOME PHOTOS

2005-04-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

5N2 outing at Sentosa. All of us enjoy it

Taken during sports day 2005, screaming and shouting like hell.

Another shot!

Leng and Lindiee at Sakae sushi.

Feeling kind of bored. therefore put up some pictures. actually wanted to put up more pics, but lazy to host it. Laziness is killing me again!! OppXx!!! anyway, i LOVE pictures!! keke!!

I'M JUST LAZY

2005-04-23T22:08:00.000-07:00

Recently, i found myself getting "lazierrrrr". Every morning, from monday to friday, i will be very lazy to wake up and attend skull. is like kind of no motivation. ha! everytime i will set my alarm clock at 6am, and i will slack for 15mins or even 30mins on my bed. Sometimes even longer until im late for skull. and last week i was late for skull again. 4 times tats it!! i got to attend detention class!!! waste my time... aniwai, suppose to go on tues, but i was sicked and didnt attend skull, so didnt go for detention class. now im just waiting for Mr Toh or Mr Wang to come and find me, if they didnt, PRAISE THE LORD!! hahaha!!

Now my laziness has increased to a ultimate level. i dont study, dont do homework, dont do this and dont do that. sometimes, im even lazy to step out of the house. i always tell myself not to be lazy, but sumhow thats just plain thinking. Sigh....

SATISFACTION

2005-04-21T12:28:00.000-07:00

I am satified with the event i had tonight. went town with Xuelian. Finally, i went town!! have been wanting to go town since last few weeks. been quite sometime since i last went town. i miss town!!! saw few new shops while shopping just now. feel so "not updated". ha!
Went to have dinner together. both of us wonder around at orhard road, thinking of what to eat. it took us like 1 hr to decide on what to eat!! eeeuuwww that was longggg....!! anyway, finally we decided to go eat sakae sushi! it has been years that i last ate sushi!! ahahaha... okok im just making a mountain out of a molehill. perhaps is just a few months? ya i guess so... ha!! Add my favourite chawanmushi!! Yummie!!!!

During the journey back home, we suddenly tok about some weird topics. erm, or shld i sae whenever im with Xuelian, we will sure tok abt weird topics?? huahuahua!!! anyway, we were toking about bus seating arrangement thingie. den we also tok about the place we normally choose to seat wen we bought the bus. this simple(may look simple, ha!) topic lasted us for quite some time. gagagaga!!! we also tok about many other stuff. Have fun tonight! Bravo!!!

Tomorrow skull starts at 8am and end at 10.10!! due to speech day. im not involve, so dont have to go back skull!!! hohoohoho!! No 3 periods of english lesson!! Praise the Lord!! hahaha!! Wont be seeing Ms Aljunied tomorrow!!! Hurray!!!

A TEACHER WHOM IMPACTED MY LIFE

2005-04-20T23:49:00.000-07:00

Hey hey!! didnt blog for the past few days. com got problem again!! all thanks to my brother :) errrkk!!!

Anyway, today is Ms Vani's birthday! Suddenly, i just recalled that today is her birthday. erm btw, shes my sec 1 english teacher. Ya, i msg her, luckily she didnt change her mobile number. Has been quite some time since i last contact with her. She's a teacher whom impacted my life. Whenever im troubled, i will surely go to her for advice. She has changed my thinking towards certain things in my life, and made me a stronger person. She's the only teacher that really impacted my sec skull life. However, wen i was in sec 2, she left the skull, and went to another skull to teach(which is somewhere near her hse). Just now, we had a short conversation with each other. She told me that her daughter is now 2 and a half year old, and a baby boy who is 1 and a half year old!! Thats fast!! Ha!! Past few years only heard that she has a daughter, and now a BABY BOY!! hahha!! Both of us said that maybe this june holiday, we gonna meet up with those guys in skull. Looking forward to it!! i miss her man!! soooo lonnnggg neva see her alrdy!!! Anyway, hope to see her real soon!!

Just finished watching eye for a guy. Shan is so cuteeee!!!! he's so TALL!! i like!!! ahhahahaha... however, he's too shy... but he's so handsomeee!!! wahahaha!!! HE'S THE MAN!! gagagagaga!!! Hmm.. Howard is kind of cheeky, but cutee... ha!! but too short!! kekeke.... Shane is not bad too. he got a artist look. if im not wrong, he's a graphic designer!! hmm... qool....!!!! okok... not to be greedy... Shan is enuff!! aaaaaaahahahahaha!!!! see ya!! gonna dream of Shan tonight!!! lalalalala...

A HEART AFTER YOU

2005-04-14T21:53:00.000-07:00

All i desire, a heart after you. wont You be my guide, place Your heart inside my soul, a heart thats ever true, one thats after You.

LOVE LANGUAGE: RECEIVING GIFTS

2005-04-13T23:55:00.000-07:00

my 3rd post of the day. kind of addicted to blogging. haha!! aniwai, came back from physics tuition class. cant concentrate during the class. cos i kept coughing non stop, and it irritates me!! during the break, me and adel wen to attributes. while we were looking at some of the displays, there came Rina. den i told her that adel tempt me with hello panda(tidbits), cos im sick rem?? i cant eat. i was sooo hungry that i kept grumbling, after that Rina search for food in the attributes, den she found oreo!!! haha... and she gave it to me. i was blessed by Rina! haha!! that's the example of love language, receiving gift. ha! aniwai, gotta slp already. skull tom... sighhhh....

5 LOVE LANGUAGES

2005-04-13T16:25:00.000-07:00

hmm... suddenly now i feel like blogging about love languages. there are 5 different types of love languages.

*Quality time
*Physical touch
*Words of affirmation
*Acts of service
*Receiving gifts.

hmm.. i shall elaborate this 5 love languages. Quality time? is just simply spending time with your love ones. perhaps, sitting down at a cafe and chit chatting or just having lunch together. quality time people will be very happy if u just spend time with them. However, today's life has bcum so packed, and many people dont even have time for their love ones.

we have our own quality time too. this is the time wen we use to reflect on the things that happen and the things we said to others/others said to us. basically, is just self-reflection. i love my own quality time! during this time, i will listen to some music and think about many things. i will have quality time during a bus journey, or even before i go to bed. i love to sit beside my brother wen he's driving. during this time we will tok about many things. i really enjoyed it! and i love to go for a spin at night. it is so fun! aniwai, i think everyone needs to have their own quality time. it's part of our life!!

Physical touch means touching somebody. for example holding hands or hugging each other. is just a simple way of showing ur love towards another person.

Words of affirmation is saying compliments or encouraging somebody. wen u have done something great, u would want to have somebody to praise u rite?? words of affirmation encourage people too. wen u are sad or discourage, sometimes the words that other people say to u may encourage u.

Acts of service means serving other people. for example pouring a cup of water for somebody. that somebody will feel very loved. just simple things u do might brighten their days.

Receiving gifts is buying or making gifts. Small gifts will make that somebody happy.

erm... im more a quality time person. i love spending time with people. even tho is just sitting down and chit chatting. i feel that time is very precious to everyone. wen u do not have the time, u cant do anything. but sometimes, people use it as an excuse too. Actually i think im "all 5 love languages" person. but not too "words of affirmation" and "acts of service". haha!!

Towards different people, i show different love languages. it's all depends on who the people im showing my love to. So, guys which category are u in??

STUPID RED CHOPSTICK!!

2005-04-13T10:33:00.000-07:00

hmm... i didnt attend skull for two days. yesterday and today. was having a feva yesterday. wen to see doctor, and he gave me two days of MC. i wass so sick that i cant even walk properly, and i took such a long time to walk to the clinic as well as back home. my body was aching like shit. Man, this feeling sucks to the core. all i could do was sleep, sleep and still sleep. i was soo lazy to get up frm my bed! ha!

Yesterday night, while i was eating my tasteless porridge, one of my chopstick drop on the floor! can u imagine i got to bend down and pick it up? at that moment i was like... errkkk!!! after that, i told myself no matter what i got to pick it up. so.... i draggggg my chair to the place where the chopstick has landed on, and very very very slowly i bend my body, and pick up that long red chopstick!!

Aniwai, today my feva has been "killed" by my medication. however, my body is still aching!! darn! oh ya, my medication. just took my medicine. hate that blackiee cough syrup! the taste is sooo euuuwwww!!!! yuck!!! hmm.. shall blog later if im not "drown" by the medication. muagagagaga!!!

STRANGER IN MY EYES

2005-04-12T18:00:00.000-07:00

She has now become a stranger to me. A person whom i have doubt in. Why is she changing? Why is there a big difference in her? i really dont understand. i'm confused.

GREAT CELL GROUP

2005-04-09T23:56:00.000-07:00

Cell group today was good. lazy to explain the situation. but was great!! haha!!

LIFE IN THE DARK

2005-04-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

im sooo hungryyy now!!! just came back from chemistry tuition class. the class has become bigger, and i dun think is a good thing for me. cos i cant concentrate.

ok anywayyyyy..... today english lesson was fun!! it is so rare to hear me say ms aljunied lesson is fun ok. haha!! cos her lessons is always so boring!!! huahuahua... watever??? erm today she asked us to write two short compositions. the 1st title was, "what do u think about the dark", and 2nd title was, "what do i live for??". i think these two questions are pretty interesting.

before i start doing the 1st question, i asked ms aljunied whether can we switch off all the light to get inspiration?? and she said why not blind fold better?? huahuahua. anyway, after that i start to write the 1st sentence. i wrote "dark is very mysterious, and is hard to explain." throughout the two periods of lesson i only wrote that one sentence. hahaha....
Anyway, now here i am to tell u how i feel ok?? pay full attention!!! ha!
erm... ya i think dark is mysterious and hard to explain. it can also illustrate a couple of things. for example, colours, secrets, your inner self. We have dark and light colours. i felt that by choosing a colour, it really can shows that what kind of person u are. COLOURS SHOW CHARACTERS!! true okay! hahha....
hmm.. secrets?? erm... i think it is something very mysterious too. wen u keep secrets to yourself, is like putting something into a box which is tightly sealed(is dark in there, ha!), and no one can open it unless u are willing to let him/her to open it. perhaps i think is time for us to switch on the light in our very own box, and which is our heart. sometimes wen u have too many secrets in that box of urs, u will breakdown if u dun share it with others. so find a true frend and get him/her to shine for u(in the box). hahaha!! yeah i mean it!
i believe that blind man will always live in the dark if he does not open his heart and let someone to shine for them. they need somebody to switch on the light for them. sometimes i feel that it is very sad to be blind, because he cant see how beautiful the world is, and cant even get to see their love ones. i think it takes a lot of courage to walk in public, i mean alone without any friends or family members. because everyone will look at u, as if you are a weirdo or an alien. please, if anyone of u do that to blind people, stop that looking can??!! it really takes a lot of courage for them to walk by faith! still remember got once wen i was in the train, i saw this lady who is blind, wearing t-shirt which has a phrase on it. guess what? "walk by faith", thats the phrase written on the shirt. i can sensed that she was really a woman of faith. she was alone without any of her friends. she travel alone and most importantly, she walk by faith!! i admired her.
ya back to my topic. dark. Living in the dark is always not a good thing to do. it hurts u and the people around u too. so get that "darken" life out of you. im gonna slp soon. tok abt the 2nd question another day ok?? see ya!!! Gnite!!

HE SAVED ME

2005-04-03T23:41:00.000-07:00

Today i brought two friends to church, and 1 of them got saved!! i was soo happy for him. this is the 1st time i brought a friend to church and he got saved!! really hope all my friends will receive their salvation, and get save in the name of Jesus Christ! He's my Lord, now and forever. Never will He forsake me. He died on the cross for me, and i will never ever forget that. Hallelujah!!

HAPPY APRIL FOOL

2005-04-01T04:21:00.000-08:00

look at the time now??? and i just wake up baby. slept at 7pm just now. was so super tired. sleepy i mean. ha!Today is April Fool!! thinking of how to "play" with my friends!! aaaaaahahahahaha!!! im good with "this" pretty girlie... BEWARE!! hohohohohooho!!!
stay back after skull to help out with the banner for sports day which is today. weiling, theresa and i went out to buy the spray. i enjoy the time when we were walking to the shop. cos is drizzling and it was kind of fun. i like the rain drops go ticck ticck... during this journey, we talked about a lot of rubbsh, as usual. is always the rubbsh theresa and me talking shit. hahaha!!
oh ya today i realised that theresa tan love to scold idiot! i guess she's just simply in love with the word. muagagagaga!!!
Aniwai, shall end here, if not thersae is gonna scold me idiot EVERYDAY!! my last words to u all.. HAPPY APRIL FOOL!!! enjoy this funkiee day!!! bleah!!!!

NAPPING

2005-03-28T21:59:00.000-08:00

yohooooooo!!!! my com is now anti virus oredi!!! go u all virus!!!! wahahahaha!!! im excited baby!!! it has been quite sometime that i last blog.

Hmm.. anyway, just woke up frm my nap. tell u guys a secret. Nap is my life!!! i love to take nap. i need to take at least 4 hrs of nap. is that counted as nap?? hahaha... to me yesh!!! muagagaga..... i hate to sleep for 1 or 2 hrs, and after that have to wake up. i hate it!!! is soooooo not shiok!!! hahaha... and when im sleeping, i hate people to ka jiao me. and i think is so rude to wake a person up when he or she is in her/him lalaland.

Aniwai, before i had my nap just now, i was listening to titanic instrumental piece. and while i was listening to that, suddenly i thought of a word, "listener". i was thinking of who are the people that i always go to, when im in troubled. and which are the ones that are good listeners. suddenly, many names and faces come to my mind. after that, i think back of the things that i said before them, and also try to recall what are the things that they said to me. Somehow, this word "listeners" has made me reflects on the things that i heard and said before.

erm... okay... gtg... do my research... Sigh.... Ciao!

A SONG TO MY LORD

2005-03-17T16:00:00.000-08:00

We were strangers starting out of a journey
Unexpected what you did to my heart
I won't hesitate whenever You come
And I give You my all

From the day You came
You give a whole new point of view
You're the one who held me up and never let me fall
You give me just what I need to get me back on my feet

I lift my hands before You
And my soul longs for more of You
When I close my eyes I can see You
And everytime I will pinch myself cause I don't believe is true

From the day You came
You give me a whole new point of view
You're the one who held me up and never let me fall
You give me just what I need to get me back on my feet

I've been waiting for You all of my life
I can feel the love is going through me
And You'll always give me the feeling of hope that never fails

You're the Son of God
And yes You are!

PRESENCE OF GOD & POWER OF GOD

2005-03-15T12:33:00.000-08:00

Wohooooo!!! im touched by the presence of God and the power of God!!! im happy baby!!! remember i said that i was going to benny hinn healing crusade?? yeah i did, and it was superb!!! super anointing!! i really felt the power of God moving thru my body and it was soooo strong!!! that was the 1st time i felt the Holy Spirit touching me and i can feel the love WoooHH so strong! At that moment, i just keep crying and crying. i can tell u, i did try to stop myself frm crying, but however i just cant stop!! Strange? ya perhaps. But im sure it's the presence of God. Even tho im not heal, but i can tell u, i've never and i mean NEVER regret attending the crusade. Because at least i've finally felt the presence of God and the power of God. When both come together, it's awesome man!!! You will defintely feel the love of God! and i am VERY SURE!!!

Tell u the truth, actually before i attend this crusade, i have doubt in God. i dont really believe in God, but somehow i try to tell myself to believe in Him. But But But.... i have no more doubt in Him now!!! i really felt His love and His power!! and it was very Strong!!! i was quite amazed actually. From this crusade, i learn a lot and "feel" a lot. it was really amazing!! dont know how to explain man, u guys gotta be there then u will understand. im sure u can feel what i felt that 2 days of crusade!!

God is Good all the the time!! And all the time God is Good!!! He loves me and i loves Him too!!!

NO MORE DOODLE BOARD

2005-03-10T14:20:00.000-08:00

okok... now i know why my doodle board did not appear. cos is no more free!!!! errrrkk!!! so fed up!! i lve doodle board lor!!! i like it!! and now they say no more free!!! eeeeuuuwwwww!!!! ok anyway, i shall change to another company!! yuckk!!!!

hmm... ok... im so excited!! because tom and saturday im goin for benny hinn healing crusade. did i spell correctly?? erm ok watever. hahahaha!! ok back to benny hinn. actually i didnt see any healing before. as in "LIVE". get what i mean?? ya... i only see video before. i saw this video in church. benny hinn healed this lil girl who was bound on a wheel chair. i was very touch by the whole scene. the 1st time i see this video, tears filled my eyes. sometimes i really hope that i can be like the lil girl. im sure that girl has great faith in God! really hope to get heal one day!!

really cant wait to go to the healing crusade. im excited!! aaaahahahahaha!!! im sure it will be filled with lots of anointing!!

lastly, i want to say... my week has been very packed!! dunno why also. hahah!!!! okokkokokok!!! see you!! and bye bye!!!!

DOODLE BOARD IS GOING CRAZIEEE

2005-03-04T14:56:00.000-08:00

hey hey!! Got my new blogskin!! Finally...!!!! And hopefully everyone will be able to view it!! Erm this new blogskin i guess would not be a permanent one. i shall change it after my computer is fix! i've been waiting and waiting!!! man!!! so longggggggg...!!!! im going craziieee again!!! i cant view my doodleboard now!!! damn it!! shall figure it out wen im online the next time. wen will it be?? i dunno!!! we shall see..... gaggaga!!

Hmm... two more days and this week is over... time flies sooo super fast!!!! everything has been so packed for me..!!! i dont even have time for my precious nap!! aaaaahahahaha!!! i need my nap!!! desperately need it!!! no nap, i will be like a dead fish!! hohohohohoh!!! eeuuuwww!!!!

ok... shall end here!!! gonna enjoy my weekends!! Bravo!!!!

CHEMISTRY TUITION CLASS

2005-03-03T15:00:00.000-08:00

It's a funky Day today!!! hahaha!!! kind of sleepy, but still it's a nicee day!!! many people told me that my blog got problem. they cant view my blog!! but but but..... theres a person who told me she can view it!! weird huh??!! and the person is none other than thersea tan!! shes crazieee!!! aaahahaaha.....!!!!!

ok...change topic.... on tuesday i wen for chec tuition class. it was so cool!!!!! so fun!! i love it!! and God has bring many new peple into my life!!! wooohohoho!!!! the class was pretty awesome. we will pray before and after the class. after every lesson, brother edwin our tutor will ask one of us to lead the prayer!!! im in a big shit!!! keke.... but must have faith lah.... hhaha..... kind of trying to console myself!!! but im scared!!! im afraid that i will say half way, and hang there for a very longgggggggg time...!!! ahahahahhaha!!!!

kind of rushing now.... gtg oredi. guys, i mean those who can view my blog, stay tune!!! ahahahahahaha!!!! hohohohohoho!!! im going nuts!!! thersea tan is making me nuts!!! aaaaaaaaahahaaaaha!!!

HE'S BACK IN MY LIFE

2005-02-25T09:58:00.000-08:00

elllllloooo ha!!!!! soooooo loooonnnnnggggggggggggg neva bloggggg!!! hmm.. perhaps thats only a few weeks. but... that is long enuff to kill me!!! wahahahaha.... ohhhh im in skull now!!!! can u imagaine??? blogging in skullllll..... kind of wooohooo!!! aaaaahahahaha.... man im excited!!! im crazie... goin insane!!! eh... im pretty insane this entire week!!! let sees, hmm..... thats becos........ He's back in my life! finally felt the presence of God again!!! pretty cool huh! past few days wen for the rivival conference. WOW WOW WOW!! its AWESOME!!! Rev Ulf Ekman is so cuttteee!!!! He's so funnie!!! cant help but to luff and luff and still luff...!!!! huahuahua!!! even tho im tired, but wen im in the house of the Lord, im charged up!!! Praise the Lord!!!

Recently im kind of down with depression. however, last week, i told myself to surrender to Him, my God, everything has changed. REALLY!!! how nicee it is rite?? i guess i gotta thanks rina, daniel, lindsey, gloria.. wah i think everyone in E247. in case u people dunno who or what is e247. let me tell u now. e247 is one of cell group in church, and im in that cell group. can i tell u people? e247 is a group full of nice people!! i mean awesome ones!!! these are people who walk into my life, and change me to a better person in life, as well as in the house of God. Cool isnt it??

Hmm... anyway, here i am, to thanks E247 for everything u people have done for me.

Also to my whole bunch of schoolmates!! they are CRAZIEE!!! jus like me!!! aaaaaaahahahaha!!! we rock the world!!! who else pretty girlie??? muaggagagagagaga!!!!!!

Ha! here to end.... BYE MY FRIENDS!!!! bleah!!!

WHERE ARE YOU?

2005-02-09T19:12:00.000-08:00

The minute I met you,

I give my all to you.

But why I don't seem to see your footsteps anymore?

Where have you been?

You once said that when I decided to follow you,

You'd walk with me all the way.

And I don't understand why are you leaving me now?

I'm losing my faith in you day by day.

Everyone asked me to believe in you,

And said that you're my strength and my hope.

But why do I feel like you've walk out in my life,

and leave me cold.

I've been waiting for you,

And I've waited long.

I'm losing control now.

When are you coming back?

Back in my life...

EEEUUUWWWWW

2005-02-07T23:00:00.000-08:00

I'm boreddddddd..... I'm hungryyyyy.... but I feel like vomittingggggg... watt the hell...!!! oh it's damn helluva shitttt!!! I feel so sickyyyy... boredddddyyyy... yuckyyyy!!! that's so freakyyyyyyyy.... suckkkyyy.... and shiitttyyyy..... wat am I blogginggggg man...!!!

Oh shit!!! I didn't go skull last friday!! Today!! and this fridae is yet to come!!! Ya watevaaaa....!! I want to eat!!! eat to death!!! Let's see.. maybe not death but just explode..!! watevaaaaa...!!! I want food!!! Antssss.. bring me food!!! Lizard!! Iguana!! watevA!! Just bring me FOOD...!!!

Skull tom!!! Wat shit is that!! Go skull for 2 hrs and do nth but shittt!!! Isn't it waste of time??? Yaya.... wateva....!! I have to go.... give my letters to blurdyy yong...

Cheers to ALL!!!!

I'M STUCKED

2005-02-02T02:00:00.000-08:00

Eyes open I'm wide awake. am I awake under this blanket of fear? or am I in a coma state? Now everyone's asleep, I am awake and I am dreaming. I'm falling in my dream and finally hit the ground. What is wrong with me? I cannot fight now. I feel like a weakling. How could I tell it? Pain bottled up, about to blow like a gun. Conversations cross my mind, but not that of the speaking kind. Back and forth I toss and turn It feels like strings are holding up my eyes. I'm putting up a losing fight and the beating of my heart just keeps the time going. Is the time moving? A question that I do not know. It feels like I'm stuck in the middle of the night. I'M STUCKED!!

WHAT KIND OF LIFE IS THIS??

2005-01-19T22:13:00.000-08:00

Lost and broken, hopeless and lonely. Smiling on the inside, hurt beneath my skin. My eyes are fading, my soul is bleeding. I'll try to make it seem okay, but my faith is wearing thin. These wounds have been open for way too long. I only wanted a simple life. I only wanted some peace. I only wanted the life that I had read about and dreamed. and now my mind is an open book. and my heart is an open wound. and now my life is an open soul for all to see. Life's alot to think about sometimes. I'm too tired to think about it. Suddenly, life is so meaningless. Too many problems to deal with, and u just do not have enough time for things that are meaningful. What kind of life is this? can somebody tell me? I really do not understand why must it ended up to be like this?? WHY!!

RUN AWAY

2005-01-16T23:00:00.000-08:00

I'm alive but tell me am I free?? I've got eyes but tell me can I see? The sky is falling, can I not accept it? I really want to be me, and not the way I am now. I'm struggling. Im breaking inside of me. I felt so sick and tired. I'm tired of being force to accept the reality. That's not what I want. I'm losing sleep and I'm falling apart. I can't tell what's right and what's wrong. Am I doing the right thing? Am I forcing myself to do things that I do not want to? Life is such a mystery. Something that I can't figure. My head is spinning like crazy. I can't take it anymore! I'm sick of it! I want to run away, away from this place which does not belongs to me.

EVERYBODY IS CHANGING

2005-01-14T10:00:00.000-08:00

Why is everything and everybody changing...???? My world, my life, people around me and my everything!!! All are changing!! To someone and something that I cant imagine! God! Why?? Why???? WHY!!!

You say you wander your own land

But when I think about it

I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking

And I can see the pain in your eyes

Says everybody's changing

And I don't know why

So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here

And soon you will disappear

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right

So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same..........

WHAT IS THIS??

2005-01-08T02:57:00.000-08:00

This is not the kind of music life that I want to live in....

IM LIVING IN A DESERT

2005-01-08T00:03:00.000-08:00

A LIL GIRL IS CRYING

2005-01-07T14:55:00.000-08:00

Well the scene begins, a little girl is crying

And the light in the hallway is dim

And the sits right back, thinks of the reason

Why nothing will fall into place

She gets more and more curious with every day

More furious in every way

And she screams out loud, "Why's it happening to me?"

And the answer is "It's meant to be"...

Well she's on her knees

And begging please

She wonders if there's somebody out there

To make things wrong

To make things right

It might be

That there's somebody out there

She moves amongst the crowd,

The people they walk by

She questions why they'll have to die

If it's part of our lives,

So beautiful and precious

She knows that she shouldn't be afraid

Of all this...

There's times that she hates you There's times that she thanks you And hope that you might understand It gets hard down here So many things to fear But it's all just a sign that you're near...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2005-01-01T22:12:00.000-08:00

Happy Happy New Year to ALL!!!

Hmm.. let me summarise my year! 2004 was really a breakthru' for me! First of all, I received Christ in August. It was awesome! As in I know more abt God and abt life too! To me, I realised that I have change in one way or another. My attitude as well as my thinking. Most importantly, I knew that I am fearfully and wonderfully made my God! I'm not perfect, but at least I am a "someone" and not a "nobody"! I also learn to treasure every single life. Many people always sae that they wanna die, wanna end their life! Isnt that stupid? Better not let me hear that!! I can live my life happily, dun you dare tell me you cant!! We may face with diffculties in life, but end your life is not the key to solve the problem. We should think of how to solve the problem and not run away from it! When theres a dead end infront of you, there will always be a hope arnd the corner! So treasure every single life, dudes!!! More to LIFE!!!

In church, I really learn alot, and Yes I mean ALOT!! Haha!! I was really very blessed to have e247 as my guide, frens and my everything!! Hohohooh!!!Even tho they are older than me, but the gap wasnt that big after all, and we get along quite well. I learn alot of things from them too! This year is my 1st year celebrating Christmas with this church. it was AWESOME AWESOME!! GREAT GREAT GREAT!!

In 2004, I realised that my relationship with my brothers got better. Last time I hate to tok to my elder brother. Becos I think he is very unreasonable. But in 2004, we began to tok alot. Especially wen we were in the car. We will tok abt many things, and from there I get to noe more abt him. Tho sometimes there were still be quarreling, but I learn to solve every single problems with many interesting methods! Ha! No obstacles, who will grow man!! I guess we will still be living in our very own world!

Yesterday wen fer thanksgiving cell group. Was very distracted while praying, cos my right hand was hurting. Dunno why la... Lol.. Before the cell group end, Rina assign a task fer every single members in e247. I was assign to be a new comer coordinator as well as a birthday coordinator. Actually, I wasnt very surprise. Ha! Cos before Rina said my name, I was quite expected to be either one of those. But still was suprised that I was assign for both!! Hmm.. interesting... Ha! Hmm... actually I'm kind of dun feel like being a birthday coordinator. Tho I like to shop, but I hate to shop for presents!!! Huahuahua!! But I guess maybe I can give it a try 1st... Hope it will turn out well! gaggagaga!!!

Lastly, I pray for world peace fer the upcuming years! And for me, I shall pray fer my relationship with my family, my frens, e247 and most importantly with God!! A bonding with God! Ha! Chemistry! wooohohooohohohho!!!

2004-12-31T01:13:00.000-08:00

Feeling down.....

PEACE TO ALL!!!

2004-12-28T23:29:00.001-08:00

Recently, there's a tsunami-hits. Many countries were affected by it. Thailand, Indonesia, Sri Lanka and India?? Ya actually I wasnt very sure about the situation. But I noe it was very badly affected to many people. Many people died, injured and some were missing. My grandparents came back from Thailand before the disaster occured. It was only 1 or 2 days before it happened. Really want to thank God for that.

Christine lived in Jakarta, Indonesia. If I'm not wrong, Jakarta wasnt affected. But really hope it wasnt. Pray that Christine and her family will be fine over there.

In 1999, before 2000, many people say that once we hit 2000, there will be many disasters. Actually, I began to believe afta last year. Becos in 2001, theres a 911 plane crash. In 2002, theres another disaster in Bali, Indonesia. In 2003, SARS came, and took away many lives too. Lastly, this year, 2004, tsunami-hits. Really hope that theres world peace. No more earthquake, no more wars, no more disasters.

Peace to ALL!!!!

CHRISTMAS!!!

2004-12-25T23:38:00.000-08:00

Hey today is Christmas!! hOHOHOHO!! Yesterday night wen fer svc at indoor stadium. It was awesome man!!! The indian dance(haha) and brk dance was pretty nicee!! Afta svc, Shi and I wen to Gladys hse. Gladys ordered canadian pizza. Afta finish eating, we chit chat, watch tv(haha) and played "dai di". This is not a normal "dai di", it ish called the "Asshole dai di" huahuahua!!! Oh ya, thats a "free show" at Gladys hse!! Gabriel was the actor and the theme ish indian dance!! muagagagagaga!!! Wen home at abt 2am! haha!! Really had a great and fun time at Gladys hse, as well as the svc!!
This morning wen fer svc, and Darren went. Praise the Lord!!! He was kind of shy tho. Hah! But I think overall everything goes well. Afta svc, my cell group and I wen to watch "Meet The Fockers"!! huahuahua!!! So damn funnie lo!!! Martha fockers!! Oh no!! Haha!!! Afta movie, wen dinner with my family. So damn FULL!!
This Christmas not only did I receive presents, but also cards!! Nice oness!!! Georgia, Daniel, Rina and Lindsey gave me cards. In Rina's card she sae that, "God is the God of the heart and not the outward apperance. I believe Jesus sees your heart and your desires." She told me that I'm fearfully and wonderfully made by God! I was touched by the words that she said.
The card that Lindsey gave me is very cute!! I like the picture on it!! Haha!!! She also gave me a sexyyy toothbrush!! Huahuahua!!! I like it!! Haha!! Lindsey if you're reading this, I want you to noe that you're super duper funnie lo!!! Huahuahua!!! Erm.. as well as a super duper great girl! Ha!
This year is my 1st year celebrating Christmas with E247!! I really enjoyed it!! The people, the presents and cards are all very cool..!!! But I think I prefer the cards than presents. Ha! Okok.. anything will do la... gagagaga!!! But felt kind of bad that I didnt go lunch with my relatives.
Aniwai, Christmas is gonna be over, and a new year is cuming! Cant wait fer 2005!!! Wooohohohoho!!!!

CHRISTMAS EVE!!

2004-12-24T02:15:00.000-08:00

Ding Dong Bell................................. tling tling tling..... Merryy Merry Christmas to ALL!! Hohohohoho!!!

Santa Clause is coming.... to my hse!!! He called meee!!! aaaaaaaaahahahahaha!!! Cant explain how happy I am now lo.... Erm.. oki... jus chatted with Lindsey on the foneee.... So funnie lo... aaaahahaha!!! I'm so excited and happy!! Christmas is tom!! Now ish Christmas eve and can u believe that Christmas ish cuming?? huahuahua!!!! Boy, I love Christmas!!! Eveything about Christmas!! Church, Jesus, frens, family and PRESENTS!!! huahuahua!!! I love them all...!!!! hohohohohoho!!!! Let's get the party started and jus get LOUD!!!

E247!!!

2004-12-18T23:55:00.000-08:00

E247!! Woohooooooo!!! Today is our last cell group miting together! I'm still in E247 with Rina. Actually I tot that I will be going to Jeryn's cell group, that's why I was surprised that I'm still with Rina! Aniwai, which ever cell group I'm going to, I think I will still be very happy and excited! As what Jeryn sae, God is in control with everything! Many of us teared and was very sad to leave each other. I was so touched by the whole scene! Sista hug Sista.. Brudders hug Brudders... It's so touching! We prayed and fellowship for the very last time together at Rina's hse! They ordered pizza hut for fellowship. And after eating, we played no. guessing game, which Jieren has suggested. The punishment is to drink a cup of pepsi. Most of them kanna the punishment, but I wasnt. aaaaaaahahahaha!! phew~~~

Really had a great day with E247! I will never ever 4get every single one of them. Tho they are not in the same cell group as me, but they will always be in heart!

WITH GOD NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

2004-12-18T03:00:00.000-08:00

Open up the gates and let the King of Glory in! Wohohohoohoho~~ Got my results todae!! I passed and was promoted to 5N!!! muagagagaggag!! Man! I'm sooooooooooooooooooo HaPPY!! This feeling ish like, HEavenly!! At first, I was sooooooooo nervous lo... Bud suddenly Jeryn msg me... She sae God is in control in everything! Afta that, I showed Pk the msg and we start to pray together. Afta praying, I kind of felt better. I trust God and have Faith! Indeed, it turn out Woohoooooo!!!! Praise the Lord! Actually b4 the night and b4 I leave the hse, I prayed alredi. Bud jus dun care and keep praying!! huahuahua!!! Afta I got my results I called many people and many people msg mi too... Lyk my mum, brothers, Joycelyn, Lindsey, Jeryn, Liching and sum other frens! Received a msg from Rina, quite surprised actually. Ha! But aniwai, she congratulated me and Shi. So bz announcing my result today!!! Ha!! bud fun! excited! qool! haha!!
Wen I knew Hweeli passed, I quickly wen to hug her!! Ha! She teared, she was so happy lo!! So happy fer her!! SOOO SOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy!!! Im so glad that 7788 all passed!!!
But was quite sad wen I knew pk failed. He cried. He was sooo sad. I was quite surprised that he failed. Cos he's smarter den me! keke. Aniwai, I'm sure God will make a way fer him!
Today saw many people teared and many people smiling and luffing(im one of them, keke). Was very happy that I passed, but at the same time felt sad fer those who couldnt make it to 5N.
Life is full of challenges and excitement. Sometimes wen we fail to do sumting, we will learn our mistakes. Thru challenges, we grow! And I believe with God around, nth is impossible!

I'M NERVOUS!!

2004-12-17T01:44:00.000-08:00

Summariseeeeeeeee my day!! Today.. hmm.. oki now ish 12.44am.. so ish yesterday... erm ish my brother's bdae!! HAPPY BDAE KOR KOR!! kekeke... As his sista, this yr ish my 1st time buy him a bdae present! OpppXxx!!! Noe la... I'm bad oki... Therefore feel bad, and bot him a key pouch this year... not cheap ok! huahuahua!! But I can see that he like the key pouch! I guess he's kinda surprise tat i gave him a present! So am I!! jajajajajajajaja!!!
Lata gonna get my results... my N lv results!! I'm so nervous but excited about it! I cant wait!! Time run faster plssss!!! Pray that every single one of us will get thru to 5N!! All the best dudesss!!! God Bless!

CHERISH YOUR LOVE ONES

2004-12-14T01:30:00.000-08:00

Jus now wen to my ex-principal's funeral. Wen my grandma told me tat she had jus pass away, I was quite shocked! Rem last time wen I was young, I study in this presbyterian church school, this principal was quite good to me. I was quite sad tho I'm not that close to her. She died becos of a sudden heart atack. She's only 58 yrs old this year, and I felt pity fer her. But I'm sure God will bring her to a very peaceful place, a place where she is suppose to go. Sumhow I feel that we should cherish everyone that we love and also those that love us. Sumtimes things happen jus so suddenly, and u will regret not keeping them by ur side/not doing it. Therefore we must treasure the time, people and everything NOW! Aniwai, I really miss the time I spent in presbyterian church school. The tchers and other stuffs treat me very good.
Lastly, I pray that this ex-principal of mine will rest in peace.

A JOURNEY OF A DREAM

2004-12-12T23:17:00.000-08:00

Can u feel the power of love?? Yeah I do!!! Feel soooooooooo annointed todae!! I guess is becos I went fer 2 svcs! Tho I'm very very very tired, cos wake up very early and slp fer only a few hrs... However, I think is worth it!! Todae in svc 4 we receive a Steward Commitment thing... As a Steward I give wad I can give. Now I'm a STEWARD!! And I'm proud to be one!! Yeahh!!! And in svc 5, Pastor Kong preached abt "The Journey of A Dream". Everone has a dream! A dream tat ish given by God. But 1stly u got to ask for it! And ask Him for a strategy that enables u to fulfilled ur dream. The Holy Spirit will den cum upon u! You must also get a promise from the word and surrender to the will of God! You must be willing to step out of Faith! Trust Him and Obey Him! Tho your dream will be threatened to be lost, but God's dream in you will grow and increase in your life!
Here! Now! I want to thank God for bringing me back from my nightmares! Praise the Lord!! Hallelujah!!

DOES QUARREL SOLVE EVERYTHING??

2004-12-12T01:15:00.000-08:00

Sigh.. Todae my brother and Joycelyn quarrel. This is very common tho.. but todae wen I saw Joycelyn, at 1st she was smiling, but suddenly wen she told me tat she cut herself!!! I was like HUH?? and I was so shocked!! Den she starts crying... my eyes was filled with tears.. but sumhow my heart was filled with Anger!! It was becos I think it is very foolish of her to do such thing and the most important reason is becos she has a healthy body and yet she did sumting bad to herself!! Some people longed fer a healthy life, a very ordinary one also dun have! Wad does she expect! Why cant she just cherish herself! Why!! I think they are jus plain foolish and selfish! They neva think abt how other people care fer them!! Sumtimes I really dun undastand why people jus love to hurt themselves physically? Why??
These few daes i saw many things that i hate seeing. Everybody ish quarreling!! and I jus hate it! Simply hate it!! It always irritate me!! Why cant people tok it over wen there is a problem?? Does quarrel solve everything and anything??

TO MY SAVIOUR

2004-12-10T21:52:00.000-08:00

I used to carry this big world on my shoulder and back
I used to lie inside my room wondering where I'm at
Lying alone I feel ur breath
And my life begin

Lord You're a warm breeze
Breathing life into me
Lord You're the sunlight
Shining down on me

I used to stand on a bridge
Waiting in the dark
Suddenly I saw footsteps on the ground
And my life renewed

Lord You're a warm breeze
Breathing life into me
Lord You're the sunlight
Shining down on me

I used to worry about my life
But when I stretched my arms toward the sky
I found you
You wipe away my tears and got rid of all my fears

SWITCH IT OFF!!

2004-12-09T02:10:00.000-08:00

As usual the music ish cuming frm the living room.. this irritating music has neva end since i was young.. no one could have a good slp.. sumtimes this "sound" will wake me frm a peaceful sleep.. and afta tat i cant get bk to sleep again... To others, this "sound" ish weird and sumtimes crazie. But to me, is alredy a kind of "music" tat i would hear once in a while. Tho i hate it, but i got to take it.. If i dun, who will?? Can sumone help mi switch off tat "music"? It's killing me!! I wonder if one day i will go deaf or go crazie?? O Jesus, my Saviour, please help me!! Help mi turn off that music.

TAKE ME AWAY!!

2004-12-05T23:00:00.000-08:00

I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable
Come and take me away

I feel Like I am alone
All by myself
I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don't want them to hurt you

If I show you
I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understsands
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside

I wish that it would just go away
And jus take me away!

MISS MY BROTHER

2004-12-03T10:00:00.000-08:00

my brother ish cuming!! my brother ish cuming!! He's cuming bk frm Australia!!! huahuahua!! miss him man!!! tho he go fer two wks only, bud to me it seems to be longgggg!! keke!! miss his naggy voice... miss the time wen he drive me around.. aiyoo jus miss him man!! gagaga!!! Later goin to the airport to BRING HIM BACK!! aaaaaaaaaahahaha!!

TAUFIK IS THE BOY!

2004-12-02T02:08:00.000-08:00

Taufik is the boy man!! Huahuahua!! He's our 1st Singapore Idol!! cHeers!! Tonite his performance was AWESOME!! Especially when he sing "I Dream"... I love tat song!! gaggga!! Wah wen he sing, the feeling ish there man! A very breezyy feeling.. Haha!! He's really great!!

DISGUISE

2004-12-01T02:31:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you..
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak

Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand

Have you ever had this wish, of being somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for that day, when your pain will disappear
You'll noe that it's not true, what they say about you
You couldn't care less about the things surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from now on

This is a song lyrics.. a song sang by Lene Marlin.. and the title is called Disguise.. I like this song.. the tune is nice.. especially the lyrics.. I decided to put this lyrics in my blog ish becos i think this song kind of describe my Life... Whenever I'm sad, listen to this song, I will feel better. This song says that we must be strong, and must not let other people think that you're weak. Let them noe that you're okay. This song really encourage me to be strong, and not be weak. I guess this song, really describe about my Life, about my feelings and all my thoughts.

SLEEPIEE DAY!!

2004-11-28T02:00:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired todae... Keep yawning and yawning.. Sleep at 3 plus and wake up at 7.30... Thanks to my brother.. He switch on the television thru'out the nite.. and wen he felt asleep.. I was thinking of switch off the television.. Bud I'm lazy... Haha!!! So I listen to music... Kind of half asleep.. half awake.. Until 7.30.. I cannot tahan.. I went to switch off the television.. Howeva by the time when i went to bed again.. I cant sleep!! EEerrkk!! So i was lying on my bed.. and trying to get bk to sleep.. So i wake up at 8am.. Wen to get ready to go church.. Thou im tired.. bud wen i think of church.. I got CHARGED UP!! So as usual la.. Take shuttle bus and all sort of things... Todae i really enjoy the service... ish so fun!! Haha!! Todae Rev. Robb Thompson came to preach at my church... He tok abt Humility..!! He gave us a few proof abt Humility.. He said tat "Wisdom is the reward provided for those who walked in humility" and " Greatness becums ours the moment we becum small in our own eyes". so that human will undastand themselves better... and it is who we're not that causes us to be humble. I remembered todae Pastor Kong said "from a Nobody, we becum somebody". Past few daes Lindsey told me this also... I guess God wants me to noe tat I can be a SOMEBODY, and im no longer a NOBODY!
Aniwai... jus finished chatting with Lindiee, the ladiee... Haha!! We chat fer quite a while in msn.. and also chat abt many things.. huahuahua... Usually chat with her.. ish kind of fer a short while one... bud recently we tok and tok and tok.. tok abt many many things.. Gossiping?? Ha!! No la.. Kind of tok abt.............. aiyo.... alot of things la... Lazy to list them out.. Lol... While chatting with Lindsey, I sound like not serious kind.. bud actually I am la... Haha... ish jus tat i love to type rubbsh.. Haha!! Here it goes again.. "haha"... She hates it wen I Lind....... her... with the"....." HUAHUAHUA!! She then toks abt discipline... I noe tat shes not trying to discipline me.. ish jus tat she wants me to noe wad should or should not sae/do. Bud she kind of got irritated by me!! Ha!! Aniwai.. she told me "out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks." and ya I felt bad afta tat.. bud no matter wad.. sumtimes things tat I sae are jus rubbsh.. Haha!! So if anyone hear me saying those "rubbsh" jus ignore oki? gagagaga...!!
I jus realised tat the sentence abt "if God has given u this life to live, He would have given u the capacity to live it with a healthy esteem", was Rina told Lindsey regarding me. I was quite surprised actually.. Lindsey told me tat going thru a tough times is not necessarily a bad thing, as I will learn and encourage other people too... and I really hope I did in some ways or another... As she said God neva allows sumtin to happen without a reason.. and yes I do agree with her... She told me tat actually she have more to sae to me.. and nx time will tok to mi face to face!! eeeuuwww!!! I dun wan!! Haha!!! So scary!!! Oh No!!!

To: Lind....
I have jus update my blog.. happy now?? haha!!! anyway.. enjoy!!! :P

CONVERSATION WITH LINDIE, THE LADY!!

2004-11-26T13:00:00.000-08:00

hua!! cant believe yesterdae i chat with Lindsey in msn for abt 2 hrs!! i guess tats the 1st time i chat with her for so long!!! ha!! yesterdae from 12am, we chat till 2 plus... we tok abt many stuff... and i mean MANY!! haha!! we tok abt her, me as well as a few of my frens..
i guess thru this conversation, we get to noe each other better!
hmm.. wen she said: if God has given you such a life to live, he will have also given you the capacity to live it with a healthy esteem. and yes i agree to it.. bud suddenly tears jus filled my eyes and i began to tear...
Lindsey: u hav to be strong and ignore it.
imagine if u r able to hav a healthy esteem, u r far more stronger than a normal person and being whole doesnt guarantee a healthy esteem.
afta tat i talked abt my dreamsss..... and she sae...
Lindsey: ha don't limit yourself. u might hav grown up w limits all placed on u.
but then as long as u hav a dream
there will b a chance
alot of things that u do do impress us.
for eg. when u played bball for 5 mins at pasir ris
and me and denise was impressed
bcos u hav the courage to do that.
when we look at u, we dun look at what u can/cannot do.
we look at ur heart.
and as u grow on in life. u must know it is never the physical thing that counts.
although the world looks at u based on ur physical health
but yet that is foolishness.
being whole means nothing.
pple whole r limitng themselves whole lot more than u
you have God and that places u at an invincible level.
i was very touched wen Lindsey sae tat "we look at ur heart" i was soooo touched.. kind of dunno how to explain this kind of feeling... i guess no one had sae such thing to me before.. and those words really impact me.. i felt kind of happy and touched... i didnt expect tat Lindsey will sae those words to me... and actually.. the fact ish.. we are not tat close also... bud afta this conversation... i get to noe her better..

A DREAM.. A DAY.. IS OVER!!

2004-11-25T10:29:00.000-08:00

Jus came bk from supper... haha.. as usual.. lol... Jus now my 2nd brother whom do not have a drving license drove mi around at my dad's office carpark. I was his 1st passenger!! can u believe it? i cant believe i dare to sit beside him!!! HE DOES NOT HAVE A LICENSE!! Bud aniwai.. his parking skill and driving was alrite.. except tat he knock onto a box of vegetables!!! Gosh!!! bud at least not knock onto a car or a person.. phewww~!~!~!~!
Todae i had a weird dream!!! aaaahahaha!!! i dream of a cell group gathering... i dream of Lindsey!!! Oh man!! hahaha!! i guess ish becos last few daes she told mi abt nx wk gathering... she sae nx thurs got a activity fer new frens.. ask mi to bring new frens.. and in my dream, i dream of my pri skull frens!! ahaha!!! the place i dream of ish like a garden... like a park or sumtin... den Lindsey and i were playing with the mud... dunno where the mud is frm... kind of weird... ok.. haha.. afta tat my shirt was so dirty...!! or thanks to Linsey!! haha... oki people tat was in my dream remember?? so no big deal... aaahahaha!!! Suddenly Carmen called, and i woke up and left my lalaland... I'm wondering wat if carmen did not call mi... wen will my dream end?? HA!!

A TIRING DAY!!

2004-11-20T02:08:00.000-08:00

Tired Tired Tired!!! todae is kind of a tiring dae fer mi.. wake up in the morning.. den go to work... afta tat i went bras basa to look fer Lindsey's present.. Kind of stressed out.. Didnt noe wat to buy fer her.. Actualli was thinkin of buying a present frm Hongkong.. bud didnt see anything i like... so last few wks.. i was thinkin of wat to buy fer her.. tot of buying a necklace.. bud i think is kind of simple... aniwai luckily i neva buy.. cos shi2 bot her a necklace... last wk i saw this foto frame... i think is cute.. it ish a shape of a cube.. theres two small little board game on it... i feel tat it ish unique.. so i bot it... afta tat i think of putting sum cute little stuff inside the cube... so todae i wen to heeren... bot this cute penguin electric fan.. i love it!! cos i think it ish so cute!! hahahaha.... aniwai.. becos of Lindsey's present.. i wen all around Singapore and HongKong to look fer it.. hahaha.. hmm.. oki... not all.. bud part of it... hahha... however.. i enjoy it!! keke... no matter wad.. i hope Lindsey will like the present i gave her... cannot tahan.. mus go lala land alredi... See you guys there!!!

MY 1ST JOB IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!!

2004-11-18T23:45:00.000-08:00

hoooohohohohohoho!!! yesterdae lulu ask mi whether i wanna work fer her dad.. kind of a easy job... den i agree to it... i think ish a new experience fer mi... cos i neva work fer other people before... can u believe it??? hahaha!!! oki... hmm.. aniwai.. todae lulu teach mi how to do the payment voucher stuff... and i gotta write cheque too!! haha!! so fun!!! and i also have to pick up fone calls.. and sae.. "good aftanoon, inglewood" woohooo!!! have to be gentle and nice!!! cant believe tat im gonna sae it in a very proper manner!! eeuuwww!!! aahahha!! tom gotta start work.. dunno what stupid mistakes im gonna make!! aaahahaha!!! God Bless me!!!

HERE IT GOES MY SECOND POST!!

2004-11-14T11:36:00.000-08:00

hellloooo!!! this ish me!! SiewLeng!! haha!! here cums my second post... kind of bored.. so decided to post this.. okie.. let mi see.. hmm... 1st lets tok abt my trip to HongKong!! Last week i went to HongKong with my mum and my elder brother... it was the dae afta my O lv chinese exam... At the airport.. i was so excited!! Because tat was my 1st trip to HongKong!! I love the food, the people, the language and the sceneries!! I LOVE THEM ALL!! I went to the peak... and i was like WOW!! wat a nice scenery!!! it was nite time.. therefore the lights were on.. and ish so beautiful!! i saw my favourite building.. the building tat i long for to see!! the excitement ish just undescribable... Before we cuming bk to Singapore... we saw Bobby Au-Yueng at HongKong airport!! he's 1 of my favourite actor!! Wen i saw him.. i was like.... AHH!!! am i dreaming?? ha!! Aniwai.. hmm.. i took foto with him and got his autogragh!!! LOVELY LOVELY!! i just cant stop smiling wen i board the airplane.. gagaga... thou i did not buy much stuff... bud the experienced ish jus as good!!
2nd, todae i wen to Amalina's hse fer dinner... She invite may, carmen, june and me to her hse because it was HARI RAYA! this was my 1st time go to my malay fren's hse fer Hari Raya celebration... it was kind of a new experienced... her parents was funnie.. bud nice... haha!! Suddenly, Jerry, one of the S'pore idol's contestant came to her hse... i was like HUH?? den she told us tat Jerry was her mum's fren... i was like OHhhh... wahahaha!! Quite surprised thou... i was thinking wah if Taufik was the one came.. i will go craziee man!! Oh No!! huahuahua!!

WELCOME TO MY LIFE!!!

2004-11-12T09:34:00.000-08:00

Yoho.. Welcome to my life...!!! you are now walking on my road... a journey of my own... so better not litter!! hahaha!! aniwai, hope you enjoy this fun-filled journey!!